April 9, 2010

A whole new me!

Baby bump has arrived!

About a week and a half ago I snapped out of my pure hate for pregnancy and decided to change my attitude and start fresh. All of the sudden I started feeling great! Gotta love the 2nd trimester! Plus, my stomach finally popped so I look pregnant vs. fat now. Well, I probably look both pregnant and fat but at least I look pregnant and can use this as an excuse for the fatness. Anyway, with my new attitude I was ready to start the week off with a bang....eat healthy, get back into the exercise routine, love life, etc. I was finally excited about being pregnant! Then, that all changed.....

It was Monday morning, March 29th at about 6:00 a.m. I was at my parents house as I had an early morning meeting in Dallas. I was walking down the stairs. I didn't want to wake anyone up so I didn't turn on the lights. It was dark. When I made it to the bottom of the stairs my foot landed on one of Lola's toys wrong, my ankle twisted, I heard a pop, I went flying and I was down for the count. There I was whimpering in the dark on my own. The pain was excruciating! I was certain I broke my foot. The whole time all I could think was "I can't have a broken foot that would put me down on my rump for the next 8 weeks only to watch the weight pile on and not be able to do anything about it". I finally pulled myself together and went to the meeting in Dallas. Within a couple hours, I could barely walk. Then I couldn't walk at all. Luckily my client meeting was at Baylor medical so I was able to have a nurse check out my foot and get it iced down. To make a very long story short, my ankle was/is not broken (at least I don't think it is) but I have a wicked sprain (so I think). This diagnosis came straight from "Dr." Odom who seems to think he knows anything and everything about ankle injuries. I'm getting better but I'm still experiencing quite a bit of pain. My foot is still pretty swollen and black & blue but I can walk. Hopefully by the end of next week I'll be able to get back into an exercise routine and get excited about this pregnancy again! For now, I remain in pain and have to sit and watch the weight pile on...Yikes!

Good news. I bit the bullet and attended my 16 week doc appt last week. I didn't attend until I was 18 weeks pregnant but at least I attended. I had only gain 2 lbs since my last 12 week appointment. I really haven't been doing real well with exercise and I pretty much eat whatever I want so this was a HUGE shock to me. I confessed to my doc and told her I cancelled the appt 3 times and almost didn't come at all due to the fact that I didn't want to weigh. She looked at me like I was insane (to be expected) and said "You've only gained 4 lbs this entire pregnancy. That is great! Do you know how many woman would love to be in your position right now?".

Dr. Mushtaler was right but she was also wrong. I had to explain this to her. I told her "Yes, I realize since my 8 week appt, I've only gained 4 lbs (in 10 weeks). HOWEVER, at my 8 week appt, I discovered that I had gained 15 lbs since the last time I weighed which was around August/September. I told her this is unacceptable and it WILL be included in my overall pregnancy weight, therefore, I've really gained 19 lbs and that IS NOT great". She kind of looked at me like I was insane again but understood as she has two young girls herself and has been through the pregnancy weight gain blues. She said "Ok...we can work through this. You're doing great and we can still keep the weight under 30 lbs". She also told me the weight seems to come off easier with the second due to the fact that you have have no choice but to bounce back to chase around a toddler. She said she is back her high school weight right now. This all made me feel better as I had always heard the opposite. So, with that, I'm optimistic (other than the ankle sprain that has set me back on exercise for a couple weeks) and feel confident that I can not only keep my weight gain to a minimal but I can also quickly get the weight off. Surely....

In other news, this baby in the belly is very very very active. It's always great to feel the kicks as it makes you realize what this torture is all about. Of course, the amount activity this baby has being doing is a little much. Basically, there seems to be constant swirling around in the belly all day and all night long. Hopefully he'll get it all out now and be ready to sleep through the night starting at day 1 due to all the exhaustion from being so active in the belly. I have to say the kicking not only gets uncomfortable after a while but it also gets a little annoying. However, even though it can be annoying, I'm ok with it b/c it lets me know the baby is doing a-okay. Lola was not much of a mover and groover in the belly so I was always worried something is wrong. Not the case with this baby.

I must end this blog with a confession. I have to say I feel guilty about the things I said earlier this week in the blog about Lola and just the way I've felt in general lately due to all the fits and crying. I took Lo to the doc on Wednesday. It turns out she has a horrible ear infection which obviously could be causing the already terrible twos to be even more terrible and probably kicked those fits up a gear or three. I told the doctor that although I don't want Lola to be in pain, I'm so very relieved. He said "So I guess you're not going to trade her in now?" I said "Absolutely not!" After the doctor appt Clay said to me "I feel guilty b/c I feel like we've been mean to Lola." He continued on to say "We haven't been mean to her face but we have been mean in our hearts." I couldn't believe how perfectly he worded this. I felt the exact same way. I've been so angry with her lately and that just isn't right. She's just trying to figure out who she is and is working through some things right now. This is her only job as a 2 yr old. Getting angry with her only makes everything worse than it has to be. So, we've shifted our hearts back to the place where they should be and I've let the anger, anxiety and stress go. Now it seems she's doing much better and Clay & I are trying to be more patient to help work through some of the other issues. I guess this is what being a parent is all about.

P.S. - I did mention the leukemia thing to the doc and he looked at me like I was insane. Why am I getting this look so much lately???? Anyway, Dr. Mirrop really didn't know how to react to the question. It was pretty funny and I'm fairly certain it's a story he went home to tell his wife.


Joy said...

You look cute and so does Mr Author! Lol's dress fits great!

The Harrisons said...

You look great! Sorry to hear about your ankle! Hopefully you'll be back on your feet in no time.