Massive fatness/flabness

Oh my!!! This being a single parent thing is KILLING me!!! AND I hate feeling the way I do right now...

Let me recap...Usually I run at 6:15 a.m. every morning. Well, with Clay gone that doesn't work so I've tried other options such as drop Lo off and meet my running partner, Angie, at 8:00 a.m. then rush back home to make a 9:00 a.m. conference call stinking and all. Or, meet around lunch time. Or, meet in the afternoon in between meetings but before Angie picks up her kids from school. Of course, this all sounds great in theory but when I attempt to make it work it just doesn't. Something always happens and things don't go smoothly and time doesn't allow me to squeeze in the run. WHAT AM I GOING TO DO?!?!?!?

Basically, I've been averaging about 1 time a week compared to my normal 3 to 4 times a week. It really sucks I must say. Here's the MAJOR problem. I won't run on my own so if Angie can't meet me during one of those crazy times mentioned above then I'm just not going to run which brings me to an excellent question "What in the world am I going to do in Austin when I don't have Angie?". I've given this a great deal of thought and I've come to the realization that I will have to join another running group and begin training for another half marathon as much as I don't want to. I figure I can start a training program, meet some people and then train on my own. I wish I would just force myself to do another half but I just don't think I can do anymore 5:30 a.m. Saturday runs AND 10 mile runs. Oh, it kills me just to think of it but if this is what I have to do then I'll do.

So, I bet you wonder why I'm so obsessed with this. Well, I've been scoping the bod and it seems to be getting flabby like and is slowly but surely losing it's tone. I realize this naturally happens when your verging on turning 33 hence the reason why I HAVE to run 3 to 4 times a week. So, I've got to get on roll and make it work. I guess once we get to Austin "officially" it will all work out. Plus, I plan to start yoga again....at least once or twice a week. Can't wait!!!

Luckily, as a "single" parent, it's also hard to find time to eat. So, although I'm not exercising as much as I'm used to, I don't think I'm gaining weight b/c I literally don't have time to eat. I basically go and go and go until 10:00 p.m. when it's time to hit the sack. It's all craziness!

Tia Molly took this pic of Lola. I can't get it to rotate so you'll have to tilt your head sideways to get a good gander at it. Isn't it cute?!?!? And, you have to love her little converse shoes (I need to get a new pair BTW...I'll put on the "to do" list now).

Anytime I feel horrible about myself for not exercising (like now), I can look at this pic (and many others) and it makes me feel so much better....it gives me a sense of freedom and makes me happy. Of course, I need to be looking at a picture of Heidi Klum (like the one attached above) so I'll get off my @ss and get out there and run even if I have to do it on my own. If for anything, running helps alleviate all the tension I tend to feel on a daily basis (which is massively building now with everything going on). I just need to tell myself once everything is back to "normal", I'll find my routine and get back on track. In the meantime, I'll look at pics of Lo to help calm my nerves and look at pics of Heidi Klum to help motivate me. As usual, I'll keep you posted.